On Saturday I left home mid-morning to travel about an hour north to Pike County. I had the inkling to enjoy autumn’s superb weather when I heard the weekend forecast. I could have perused the boutiques on historic Main Street or shopped until I dropped. But I wanted to be outdoors. Dean’s mother passed away on October 6 with her burial in St. Joseph, MO last weekend. At last week’s funeral, I reminded myself that it was time for a visit to my parents’ gravesite just outside of Bowling Green, MO. Both my parents and grandfather died during the month of October as well; 11 years, 9 years, and 3 years ago.
The countryside was beautiful, yet I felt a sadness for this occasion. The colors of the leaves and harvesting fields distracted me from my somber mood, but my purpose for this autumn drive was not missed. I took the scenic route following along the Mississippi River. I forgot about all those little towns with speed limits at 30mph. It was enough for me to slow down and refocus for the next leg until the next village. The river that author, Mark Twain wrote about is so wide in many places in Lincoln and Pike Counties. Between the trees I could see it sparkle like diamonds in the sunlight. Although, the many stand-alone sycamore trees caught my attention the most. Even the hillside cemetery had a sycamore.
I said a prayer, asked for forgiveness for some unkind words I recalled I said to my parents many years ago. Some memories were from childhood and others as an adult. Likewise, as memories flood my mind of unkind words my father and mother said to me, I forgive each of them. Those memories help explain my own behaviors as a person. No reason to repeat history with negative words. Simply, be kind to others.
On way back home, I stopped in Clarksville, MO to use the restroom and stretch my legs. I had hoped to grab a sandwich. Not many eateries to choose from, but a clean restroom was a must. A riverside bar & grill had patrons there. A dozen Harleys were parked outside along the curb. I am not a biker, but hoped they welcomed all. The restroom was clean, and the patrons enjoying their food and drink. I love a good grilled sandwich, so I stayed. While eating a delicious chicken club sandwich at the Clarksville, MO bar & grill, words flooded my thoughts, so I wrote them down. Here is the poem:
Sycamores
Scattered hills breathe sadness.
Sadness as they overlook the valleys.
Valleys of withering grasses and emptiness.
Emptiness except for the stand-alone, century old sycamores.
Sycamores with peeling, white-painted bark.
Bark that seems to come apart at the seams.
Seams covered with crimson red sumac vine.
Vines that kept those years together.
Together during the bitter and sweet seasons.
Seasons are many that fill our lives.
Lives interwoven with faith, hope, love, disappointment, grief.
Grief over ill health, blank dreams, and abandoned promises.
Promises made with good intentions.
Intentions distracted with stressors and others’ disregard.
Disregards are many by hurting or hurtful people.
People everywhere breathe sadness.
Sadness dissipates as they look up to the Heavens.
Heaven’s Divine nature made a canopy of colorful leaves.
Leaves are many of those stand-alone, century old sycamores.
Sycamores that still stand alone near the scattered hills.
Deanna Greens and Garden Art 